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Originally Posted by Tomtentp
I think this could be a problem for a working friendship, I think this would make the relationship somewhat awkward. It's almost like being in love with a freind of the opposite sex when your friend doesn't feel the same. It makes the friendship complicated.
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I can understand that, but I don't think I am in love with her. I guess I could be, if I were to let it happen, but that strikes me as one of the stupider things I could do at this stage of the game. As for the similar but not identical fan-heroine-worship, I just plain don't do that. My feelings for/relationship with Alizée fall into two compartments. As a fan, I just like her music. I have her albums, I listen to them often -- well, I listen to Psychédélices pretty often; it's been a while since I last put the old ones on. But that's no different from the way I relate to any other artist I admire. I'd also like to see her in concert, because I hear her performance in person is a must-see. But I have no interest in having anything more intimate to do with her,
as a fan. I don't want her autograph, I don't really want to meet her backstage, etc.
The other compartment comes from my perception of who she is as a person. This is completely separate from Alizée the performer. I just like her. I think she's a nice person, and a smart person, which for me is just as important. I like to tell her so, and I do, because I know it will make her feel good.
But at the same time, I also can't resist teasing her a bit, precisely because I know that a lot of other people are gushing, "Oh, you're so beautiful, you're so perfect, can I kiss the ground you walk on? If I touch you I'll never wash my hands again. Merely lower yourself to smile at me and my heart will stop, but I'll die happy."
I actually feel like I
am her friend. Whether she's my friend is another question. But that's for her to figure out. I just do what my heart says.