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Originally Posted by Tye
One thing people around me don't get about me is how my attraction towards women works. Sexual desires are not a thing I get worked up over. When I look at women, I first notice their eyes, and hair. Not their breasts or butt or legs. The eyes to me are the most beautiful part of a women. That is were majority of the emotion is shown.
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Well, sure. Actually, I'm the same way. But you know, and I think this is also part of the residue of puritanism, I don't think a lot of people understand the mechanism of sexual attraction, because they try to sever it from the whole person. There's a lot of mind to it, in fact, it's
mostly mental. You're attracted not just to the body but to the whole person, or else it's not any good. And yes, the eyes are the window of the soul.
It works the other direction, too. Night before last, my housemate had two people over to visit, an 18-year-old boy and girl (couple), and when the girl saw me she did this very common thing, looked me in the eyes, and
then looked down to see the rest of me. No way in the world was I going to take that for an invitation, with her boyfriend in the same room, and I don't think it was one, but it was definitely attraction, and it didn't bother me, I loved it.
And Alizée surely gets that energy a lot, and a lot of it is from men she will never actually have sex with. Because not only does she have a beautiful face and body, but she's a beautiful person, too. (If a bit of a scamp.
) And I'm sure she loves it, too.
So my feeling is, don't sweat it. I find I'm attracted to her in just about every way conceivable. I would really love to talk to her, have a conversation with her, and help each other become bilingual. I would love to do magic with her, because I know she does that kind of thing and I do too, and I have reason to believe she's quite good. Of course I love hearing her sing and seeing her perform, and I also love writing poetry and song lyrics for her -- and if at times those end up being a little racy and flirtatious, that's cool, because that's also how I feel. And if in the future things worked out that way, would I be interested in having sex with her? You bet I would. And I see no reason to hide that, or be ashamed of it or embarrassed by it.
Of course, I'm on the wrong side of the ocean to make that desire even remotely realistic at present, even if she wasn't married. Some of the other things can be done long-distance, and so as far as
acting on desire is concerned, those things are what I would like to do. But there's no reason to pretend the sexual attraction isn't there, merely because I am in no position to do anything about it. Do you see what I mean?