Putting things in their proper perspective

[Scruffydog777]

I've been kind of depressed of late and not to mention bitter over Alizee's not being in Les Enfoires, because at one point, she promoted the show, then when she could have easily been a part of it, apparently (at least that's the way it looks at this point) opted out. I was also depressed with so little on the horizon. I imagine next year she will find a way to be in the Tour again instead of L.E. and it looks like it will 2017 before an album get's started, but who knows when it will be finished.

I had a dream the other night that I hadn't even planned on mentioning in here, but because of what happened after, I will mention it. I dreamt that somebody hurt Alizee bad at a wedding, but it wasn't her own. Now my dreams never seem to accurately fortell the future (especially with lottery numbers) so I didn't even give it a second thought.

Many times I've mentioned how Alizee ended 7 years of depression for me. Well that depression started back in late 1999. I was living in Savannah, Georgia; about 900 miles away from here. I got divorced about 3 years earlier. A little over a year later, I met a wonderful woman. Soon after that, the company I worked for pulled out of Savannah. I took a new job and wasn't happy with it. Me and my ex had been in money trouble for years. A golden opportunity came up to get a job with a major airline in Boston. It led to the break up with this woman. It was very painful to leave her and Savannah and that's what led to my depression.

So like I said, I was depressed and bitter of what's been going on or maybe the lack of whats going on with Alizee in the near future at least as far as singing. But then I got a message from my exgirlfreind who I hadn't talked to in years through Facebook asking me to call her. She told me a few years ago, she had breast cancer. Unfortunately for her, she hadn't found out till then, that there was a good history of it in her family. The cancer was in a difficult spot, so they had to call in a specialist to remove her breast. Then she had to have a lymph node removed. After that, the cancer returned to an area near where the original incisions were made.

She went through chemo and it looked like it was in remission, but it came back last year. She had another chemo session and they said that would probably be it, but they recently told her she needed more. She called me because she didn't want to go through with that again and she was tired of being a burden on her family and needed someone else to talk to.

So I talked her into going through with it and that's not an easy thing to do. If you don't have much time left, chemo can make some of that time miserable, but still not being there in person and not knowing all the particulars, I felt I had to advise her to go throug with it.

I also will try and see if maybe I can get her to go to one of the excellent hospitals in this area. I will be contacting some doctors I've had to deal with recently to maybe see if they can recommend someone.

So the dream and with what's happened to my ex-girlfreind made me do a lot of thinking. We still have Alizee and she's still pursuing her career and I think there will eventually be another album. So these things certainly didn't cheer me up, but they did help me put things in their proper perspective.